Why?

Why? Why things doesn't go like I want? Why there are times that it seems to be ok but it doesn't end well. I think I do things to deserve it. But, who or what decides this things? Do I believe in Destiny? I do thing so, so I can only wait until the goos one appears. But is't not so simple waiting and I'm fed up of waiting. I want it now. And now I ask myself: What can I do more? If with all the things that I do it doesn't happen I don't know what I have to do more. But I won't, no, I can't stop. It in my veins, it's my personality, I can't be like others.